I can't take it

Photo from gryfon

I'm having a bad time. I wish I could start this post with a better word wizardry but I can't. I don't feel at ease. I'm sorry for not being able to respond to your queries/tags/e-mails on time, I rarely go online.

Let's say the events that occur right now is a layered cake.

First layer:
My dog is dying. *cries* I just got him about a few months ago, he's only like 4 months old. I won't go into details because it makes me cry so yeah. Coco is dying. I feel so alone and unloved.

Second layer:
Lara (my friend/music center schoolmate) is ignoring me. She kept complaining how we didn't see each other for about a month and that I should go out. I told her I can't because there are problems at home and it's so stressing.

A few days ago, she asked me out to the bookstore or somewhere. I told her I can't promise anything. The day passed and boom. She doesn't even respond to my IMs. Ugggh Lara you...!

Then she told me how I broke my promise. Never mind that we talked through MSN and there's a fucking archive. Never mind that I never said I'd make it.

Wow.

So most of my real life friends are ignoring me. Wow. Wow. Just because I can't go out.

Third layer:
Some fucking reptile bit my ankle. I was in the middle of the rice field AND IT JUST BIT ME. Wtf. I was lucky its fangs didn't go deeper into my flesh. It was just some kind of scratch. I won't go into details again. I'm not in danger of anything but I can't walk properly though.

Fourth later:
As you probably know, my two siblings who have been away from us for years flew home about a week ago. They're just not the same, it's hard to keep up with their brand new personality which is altogether demanding and really inconsiderate.

The cherry on top:

IT'S SO NOISY AT HOME. LIKE, YOU CAN'T EVEN HEAR YOURSELF SPEAK, LET ALONE THINK.

I didn't wanna tell you all this.

PS: I do enjoy having like 7 kids at home at the moment. But sometimes they fight and it's like, reaaaally annoying.

some updates!

Ok so as you can see very vividly, I have changed my layout! I got sick of my old one so yeah. When I go for colors, I seem to seek simplicity. If I switch to minimalistic, I crave for colors! What the flying fuck is wrong with me omg.

So, do you like it or...? I know it isn't much, but that's how I think my blog should look right now. Some of my friends protested that I leave my layout alone and wait for another month to change it.

Header/Layout request is CLOSED. I repeat, CLOSED. I'm not accepting any more requests this time because I've gotten my hands full and and... *melts into a puddle*

By the way, sorry for my second tutorial's delay.

This day was a mess. Literally. We had an all-house general cleaning wtf. You see, we currently reside in my late grandparents' house because they're both gone now.

I would've loved to slack off and silently laugh at my siblings who carry heavy loads (my cabinets, boxes). But I got dragged into it and wtf, I was sweeping rat poop before I could even say "fuu!" I couldn't complain because my uncle is very verrry scary and supremely strict.

It's already 3 AM but I haven't gotten any rest since I woke up at 6.

My cousins are here, I'd told you, hadn't I? So yeah, they're all kids and I feel so lalala old and I'm like their master... except that Shiloh here (the girl) is exceptionally smart and won't submit to my wishes ("can you please hand me the mouse over?" "NO LET ME WATCH BARBIE FIRST."). Well, she is a smart kid. Like, a kid scholar. Fuuu. My big brother's a scholar, most of my cousins are scholars. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? Hahaha.

And by the way, it took me 938271dsa9837fuu minutes to mull over posting my stupid photo here. I don't really fancy that kind of stuff. That's my current Facebook DP and if I get too shy I'll remove it. It feels creepy.

AND NOW I'M ABRUPTLY STOPPING THIS POST BECAUSE I SEE MY OWN FACE STARING BACK AT ME WHILE I TYPE. THIS IS SO FUCKING CREEPY OMG.

Les chocolats délicieux, les bébés et le chien.

Hellooo everyone. I'm blogging normally again. I went food shopping and spent all of my money buying nomz! Meiji products of every flavor, chocolate bars, cookies, and soft drinks! Wth, I was planning to get a new haircut but the sweets were irresistibly threatening! Yes, threatening. It was like, "BUY ME OR DIE YOU BIJ. HOHOHO."

*blinks* I didn't have a choice now, did I?

Cream-filled treats that I can't not take photos of! I didn't buy the boxed ones because there were a lot of stuff I bought and I was trying to budget the little money I bought. What with two dozens of chocolate bars and a jar of Nutella searing my wallet. Still, I love these enough to get them featured! Oooh.

The rest of my uncle's family arrived two days ago! That means two more kids at home! I like kids ok.

Meet my almost one-year-old cousin/godson Caedwyn! He's a total derp, you see; and he always tries to imitate what he hears. He even screws his face up when he sees my phone! He knows I'm taking a photo I guess.

See those orchids and birds of paradise behind him? They're mine. I love plants, and I was delighted when they bloomed! I'm still waiting for my lilies to come out of their buds!

Since there's a baby inside now, Coco has been deemed off-limits inside the crap house. We never leashed Coco and he never set paws outside so this must be a brutal shock for him.

He keeps crying and crying and even tries to break free. And the only way to shut him up is when I go out and sit with him.

Poor puppy. But who knows what he's capable of right? He might suddenly attack baby Caedwyn omg. He's very jealous and possessive and dislikes it when I carry a baby. I always carry him and he likes chilling out on my tummy so I kinda get how he feels. But still. We haven't had him injected with anti-rabies yet, I got bit by him one time and I'm so fucking lucky I didn't show any symptoms! I was really scared because... what if I needed injection!? They feed my fear by making fun of it. My mother said I needed seven shots in my tummy. Or twenty-five. Or nine, according to who's trying to scare me anyway. What the actual fuck.

I do find it funny though, now that I think I'm safe.

We said goodbye to our old Fairyflosss and change our resource site's name to Cirque du Latte! Visit the Latte Cirque now!

By the way, does anyone want to request a tutorial? Do say so. I wanna know what you want to know.

Good day to you reader! I gotta go now. Bye.